These are the dark days. by callmemara, literature
Literature
These are the dark days.
These are the dark days.
When no amount of light can force itself in to your crumbling world,
This cave that you dwell in away from probing eyes and words too loud for your fragile state.
It’s an escape and a prison.
You’re free and you’re bound by the black that is encroaching upon this place,
Violating the thick walls you’ve built and marring your once hopeful heart.
Others are unassuming as they pass by – their very nearness so insignificant and yet so fatal to your spirit.
Every once hoarded ounce of energy is spent to appease them,
And yet you are left there with the broken bloodied pieces,
Waiting till the
Oh, my heavy, heavy heart
My so very foolish heart
You've destroyed everything, once again
Oh heart, how could you lead me to him?
To that bright star in my night sky?
To the perfection that made me hope, dream,
and feel alive
beneath the gaze of his blue eyes
I wonder if he looks at her that way
If the way he says her name makes her heart swoon
Does she feel for him the way I do?
Did her heart lead her there, too?
Why have you done this to me,
when I was happy to be alone?
Oh, betrayer
Treachery and deceptiveness are your vices
You made me believe in him and me
I went willingly
If only just to feel the presence of his being
How easy it is
Walking with you
Like the sun rising up
And greeting morning dew
How calming your presence
When you come close to me
Like after a storm
In the wide open sea
Your smile so warm
Your eyes so bright
Love bursting forth
Like the breaking of light
I have dreamed you up
All of my life
Have you waited for me?
Like day waits for night?
If only you'd say
What I have longed to hear
Like beauty, like truth,
So is my love for you, dear
He is beautiful beyond compare
Effervescent
He shines as pure light
His lips and words as sweet as honey to my soul flow in the air between us
Resting on my spirit
He is so gentle, so patient
There is no rush when I'm with Him
No need for other thoughts
Time stops
And His laugh meets mine as our joy intertwines
Oh, He has the most beautiful laugh
He is infectious
I love Him
Every part of Him
He whispers in my ear, secrets
Meant only for me
His smile reassures me
I am so thankful for each moment spent in His presence
Under His covering
He is sun and moon and stars and earth and sky and all that is good and perfect
He is br
Lonely
like a river flowing alongside the shore knowing that the two are never the same
Lonely
like a dream that is never fully understood
Lonely
like one single
word
Lonely
like a heartbeat
Lonely
like the spray of the sea that doesn't fall on flesh
Lonely
like a single note of a melody when the rest is forgotten
Lonely
like a voice crying out in the wilderness
Lonely
like a snowflake that melts before it meets ground
Lonely
like the desert sand
Lonely
like stale air
Lonely
like wind in infinite space
Lonely
like a young girl who writes pretty thoughts for no one
I miss you.
Like words to a song that play in my mind,
I don't know the tune but I can still hear the rhyme,
And there you are.
You made me believe in those pretty things you said,
As you slowly made your way out of the door and into my head,
And you're never there.
I put my trust in you.
My faith, the essence of my life, my hope and breath.
Like the rain that lightly falls on my face,
Leaving only memories of wet where it used to hold a place,
You haunt me.
I can't escape the way you once invaded my life.
But I have to let go, or this night,
This blackness that surrounds my lonely little world,
Will never turn to white.
But I
There's a place inside
Drowning in doubt and fear
Where I go to hide
You will find me there
Locked away from the world
Dreaming of a prayer
That could take me away
Into Your arms
Make me whole
Until I belong
And in this place
Of days passing by
I can't see Your face
I am covered in black
As if I am already lost
And there's no way back
And still I dream
One day You'll come
Make me whole
Until I belong
Though I'm kept away
From everything and everyone
I don't have to stay
To me it's safer here
To slowly die away from it all
But it's becoming clear
That the darkness is
More than I can bear
Take my hand
Lead me away f
Oh, lover
I hear those voices again
Telling me I'm pathetic
And not worthy of you
And since you're not here to dispute them
I've begun to believe
That all that they say is true
I wonder
As I search
Across great divides
Always looking, hoping
Longing for your strength
Your tenderness
Your truth
Lover, please come home to me
I promise I won't be what they tell me I am
I'll be everything you want me to be
Please
Find me
Alone she sits
peering up towards the space that surrounds her
as if someone should appear
She is wearing that red dress
The one that hugs her skin so tight
it becomes like second flesh
It smooths and glides over her curves
dancing about her legs
giving her room to move and sway
She stands out against the night's backdrop
But to whom?
These are the dark days. by callmemara, literature
Literature
These are the dark days.
These are the dark days.
When no amount of light can force itself in to your crumbling world,
This cave that you dwell in away from probing eyes and words too loud for your fragile state.
It’s an escape and a prison.
You’re free and you’re bound by the black that is encroaching upon this place,
Violating the thick walls you’ve built and marring your once hopeful heart.
Others are unassuming as they pass by – their very nearness so insignificant and yet so fatal to your spirit.
Every once hoarded ounce of energy is spent to appease them,
And yet you are left there with the broken bloodied pieces,
Waiting till the
Oh, my heavy, heavy heart
My so very foolish heart
You've destroyed everything, once again
Oh heart, how could you lead me to him?
To that bright star in my night sky?
To the perfection that made me hope, dream,
and feel alive
beneath the gaze of his blue eyes
I wonder if he looks at her that way
If the way he says her name makes her heart swoon
Does she feel for him the way I do?
Did her heart lead her there, too?
Why have you done this to me,
when I was happy to be alone?
Oh, betrayer
Treachery and deceptiveness are your vices
You made me believe in him and me
I went willingly
If only just to feel the presence of his being
How easy it is
Walking with you
Like the sun rising up
And greeting morning dew
How calming your presence
When you come close to me
Like after a storm
In the wide open sea
Your smile so warm
Your eyes so bright
Love bursting forth
Like the breaking of light
I have dreamed you up
All of my life
Have you waited for me?
Like day waits for night?
If only you'd say
What I have longed to hear
Like beauty, like truth,
So is my love for you, dear
He is beautiful beyond compare
Effervescent
He shines as pure light
His lips and words as sweet as honey to my soul flow in the air between us
Resting on my spirit
He is so gentle, so patient
There is no rush when I'm with Him
No need for other thoughts
Time stops
And His laugh meets mine as our joy intertwines
Oh, He has the most beautiful laugh
He is infectious
I love Him
Every part of Him
He whispers in my ear, secrets
Meant only for me
His smile reassures me
I am so thankful for each moment spent in His presence
Under His covering
He is sun and moon and stars and earth and sky and all that is good and perfect
He is br
Lonely
like a river flowing alongside the shore knowing that the two are never the same
Lonely
like a dream that is never fully understood
Lonely
like one single
word
Lonely
like a heartbeat
Lonely
like the spray of the sea that doesn't fall on flesh
Lonely
like a single note of a melody when the rest is forgotten
Lonely
like a voice crying out in the wilderness
Lonely
like a snowflake that melts before it meets ground
Lonely
like the desert sand
Lonely
like stale air
Lonely
like wind in infinite space
Lonely
like a young girl who writes pretty thoughts for no one
I miss you.
Like words to a song that play in my mind,
I don't know the tune but I can still hear the rhyme,
And there you are.
You made me believe in those pretty things you said,
As you slowly made your way out of the door and into my head,
And you're never there.
I put my trust in you.
My faith, the essence of my life, my hope and breath.
Like the rain that lightly falls on my face,
Leaving only memories of wet where it used to hold a place,
You haunt me.
I can't escape the way you once invaded my life.
But I have to let go, or this night,
This blackness that surrounds my lonely little world,
Will never turn to white.
But I
There's a place inside
Drowning in doubt and fear
Where I go to hide
You will find me there
Locked away from the world
Dreaming of a prayer
That could take me away
Into Your arms
Make me whole
Until I belong
And in this place
Of days passing by
I can't see Your face
I am covered in black
As if I am already lost
And there's no way back
And still I dream
One day You'll come
Make me whole
Until I belong
Though I'm kept away
From everything and everyone
I don't have to stay
To me it's safer here
To slowly die away from it all
But it's becoming clear
That the darkness is
More than I can bear
Take my hand
Lead me away f
Oh, lover
I hear those voices again
Telling me I'm pathetic
And not worthy of you
And since you're not here to dispute them
I've begun to believe
That all that they say is true
I wonder
As I search
Across great divides
Always looking, hoping
Longing for your strength
Your tenderness
Your truth
Lover, please come home to me
I promise I won't be what they tell me I am
I'll be everything you want me to be
Please
Find me
Alone she sits
peering up towards the space that surrounds her
as if someone should appear
She is wearing that red dress
The one that hugs her skin so tight
it becomes like second flesh
It smooths and glides over her curves
dancing about her legs
giving her room to move and sway
She stands out against the night's backdrop
But to whom?
I cry because it helps me
I cry because I want to
I cry because it soothes me
I cry because it's fun
I cry because there is nothing left for me to do
I cry to write my stories
I cry to live out my stories
I cry for love
I cry for hate
I cry for peace
I cry for war
I cry for life
I cry for immortality
I cry because it's my friend
I cry because I won't be alone
I cry like the first cut in the construction paper
I cry because it's my way of doing things
I cry to let it all out
I cry to mend my heart
I cry to stop the bleeding
I cry to start over
I cry to take it all back
I cry like I am stopping time to relive the past
I c
She Called Herself a Poet by SugarCoveredDreams, literature
Literature
She Called Herself a Poet
she spent years telling herself that her ribcage was a keyboard
and that her body was a twisted, deformed stick, eager to be broken
and staring herself down in the mirror, she would tell herself
you. are. hideous.
uglyuglyuglyuglydontlookatyourselfuglyuglyugly
she was falling in love just to fall out of it
and breaking her heart just to
experience the feeling of it falling apart
she devoted hours of each day
to convincing herself that
she walked to the wrong beat
and sang in the wrong key
and lived in a world overflowing with pain
she cut red lines across her wrists
drew crippled hearts across her walls
smeared blood across h
it is the third of october
and i am building a castle for us
out of feathers, bird bones,
ocean waves and library book pages.
anything to keep our feet from
touching the ground.
you are sin, he whispers
and his fingers trail cold fire
down my side, scorching flesh
and freezing bone;
brittle pieces of me shatter
as they hit the stained linoleum floor.
don't wake me from this nightmare.
i whisper a nursery rhyme
as i walk down our
autumn path.
kamikaze leaves fall, trailing
fire as they throw themselves from
the branches, down, down,
to cold pavement below.
your words echo in my mind
a constant reminder
that i am sin
but you,
you were
ne
slowly, and then all at once by A-Lovely-Anxiety, literature
Literature
slowly, and then all at once
and for once, he slips on his wedding ring, to cure the monotony. it slides over his knuckle, a perfect fit, and in the morning release of sunlight the silver gleams at him. it glares, calling him a liar: she is not a whorehouse and you are too broke to own her, you harlot, you. he buttons up, tucks in his shirt tail, and buckles his belt. the clinking of metal parts is the only sound in the room besides the dusting of her breathing beside him. and when he's gone, the only thing he leaves behind are the bruises on her collarbone.
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you find him because you're lonely, (well, it's actually the opposite.) he finds you because his wardrob
Cigarettes remind me of you
I take them in comfort
And times of consolation
To take my mind off the world,
My problems in it
They work,
Wonderfully,
But mostly only for a little while
They may be lovely while they last
But when they’re gone, well,
They’re gone
And when I breathe
The faintest traces
Of mint and tobacco
Smother my taste buds
To ensure I don’t forget
bedtime stories don't quite go this way by A-Lovely-Anxiety, literature
Literature
bedtime stories don't quite go this way
once upon a time--
no wait, that's wrong.
let's not start our story that way.
many times,
you find yourself in your bathtub,
the water scalding
and risen as high as the rim itself.
you find yourself submerged
and thrashing
and screaming out for somebody to help
you;
you are being drowned.
monsters as black as the sky
are tearing at your ankles,
cackling and pulling you down and out of sight
and water splashes out of the
tub and you are seeing nothing
but old memories that stick to your throat
when you can do nothing but cry.
many times,
you find yourself in your shower,
curled up in a corner furthest
from the water because
you are afraid th
Stream of Thought I: Fragments by intangible-poet, literature
Literature
Stream of Thought I: Fragments
I can lay here all night,
contently pondering about
nothing in particular.
After all, anything is better
than having to face temptations
of relapsing into the dark millennium
that was once my entire life.
Shattered, lay the pieces of my hope,
everything I desired seemed so
improbable and childish.
But it doesn't matter now.
The world moves so quickly
in contrast to my paced breathing.
Everything slows down,
almost to a complete stop.
Except for my thoughts;
they remain at their steady flow,
while everything else pauses
for a moment or two--
a moment lasting hours and hours
until the sun peeks from behind the roofs.
Then dawn approaches and pa
This familiar territory sends waves of trembling terror coursing through my body
The fear isn't the only fixation pulsating in my blood stream
Like intoxication seeping its way into every cell that makes up my being
This rush of panic, this lust, this craving for the death-filled drugs that blacken my soul
Smoke rises, filling my lungs, and I inhale the bittersweet fumes of a decision already made
My strength alone leads me to fall in weakness at the feet of my master
I long to escape him, but instead of turning to run I push closer and closer
Tempting fate as if I could control this desire
As if I was directing this scene
I know thi