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Light of an angelYour presence allures me
It also ensures me
That I'll be protected
Your wings glow white
All through the night
As you fly gracefully
I wait patiently
Because I know you will come
No mater what I have become
Dying to be BeautifulDying to be beautiful
How far does it go
How deep can it get
How dark can it pull
When nothing holds you together
But layers of makeup on sunken cheeks
And your bones so frail they
Shatter from sobbing
Your heart so weak
You cannot risk loving
Your world so painful,
Through gray misty eyes
From the outline of ribs
To the protruding bone spines
I clearly see, you’re dying
Yes, dying to be beautiful
I wish somebody would tell you
The secret of beauty
It comes from the heart
The inside out
Not the outside in
But still how far will you go
How deep will you get
How dark will you go
Until you realize
Just to be
Waiting for HimI’m praying, watching, waiting,
For that special guy,
Wondering what he’s like,
What he loves to do,
Who he is...
For now I’m just going to wait,
I know it’ll never be too late,
Something pure, beautiful, a glimpse of the wonder Above,
He’s going to be the guy,
Who’ll walk the long path of life with me,
Who will have morals and a pure heart,
Treat me with respect and hold the door open for me,
Love me and make me feel special,
He’s not going to be perfect; we’re only human, after all,
But my standards are high,
Rightly so, for I shall not give myself away to just anyone,
Dark DaysMy days are grey
The sky is dark
I haven't got any luck, no
I try to find
a way to escape
But they don't let me walk, no
There's no obstacle
I can't beat
But I'm stuck in this chair
I see through the window
and I find out
People are running for their lives
I have no power, but
If you want war I'll give you war...
My days are dark
The sky is grey
I can find a solution
for my country
But I think I'll do it again
Dearest PreciousMy dearest precious
is running through my hands
away from infinity
The long lost definition of Me,
you thought you had it
I'm not even sorry to break your illusions
You're bleeding at the mountainsides
and I'm impregnated by the valleys
and the unsexed wastelands
are our battleground
I'm so fucking Inane
and you are now
between a crush and a curse
ChangeWould you please tell me?
What displeases you so?
How can I change myself?
So you can accept me again.
What is so wrong with me?
That it bothers you so?
How can I change?
Become who you want me to be?
How can I fix myself for you?
Me changing seems to be the only way,
You see yourself as perfect.
It seems the only way is if I change.
So I will.
I do not feel like fighting any more.
Broken Me.When my heart starts to break...
I try to convince myself these tears are fake.
That I’m playing for an audience.
But I guess that simply makes no sense.
I’m sitting here alone, again,
And yet every tear I’m holding in.
Maybe my hearts being punished.
But I just need you to miss...
I need you to miss us
Who we were besides the lust
Who I am... when you’re not here.
I’m weak now... just full of despair.
I have so many questions to ask you.
If you saw this poem... would you care?
Do you love me still?
Will my heart ever heal?
I have no answers, so can you tell me.
Am I nothing? Is that what you see?
My dearest, sweetest, meMy dearest me,
How are you in those future days? How much has really changed?
Is your life what you've dreamt of, or are things still the same?
You're living to the fullest I hope, you've accepted you for you.
I really hope you're the me I know, but living more for two.
Don't look back on the past and say "I wish I'd done this and that."
Because the past is the past (they say), and you'll never get it back.
Don't wish and sigh and dream like now. That wont make much difference.
Embrace your current state of being and learn to love your presence.
I'm helping you to write those wrongs because that's who you are.
At least, I hope that'
Burns DarknessBlood mixes with sand
I spit it out
some still lingers yet
That soft metallic taste
Topped with hard crunches
between my back teeth
Or is that them
My teeth, crunching; clenching
Crumbling and crushing now
grinding into fine dust
Where once they were
Connected, by rotted roots
As we are here
connected by much less
Less than rotten fumes
Less than I; you
Or now, vice versa
As it (n)ever was
Yet we bend, break
Splash like a light
through this shattered prism
Lighting up empty rooms
Cast upon distant walls
Behind the brightest light
There are darker shadows
And here you are
Empty and more vacant
than a hallow-point she
Forbidden LoveStaring deep into your eyes I can see it
These feelings are so real they want to break free from my skin.
You can see right into me
I'm an open book to you.
Your sky blue eyes pierce right to my heart
I could look into them all day.
But I cannot for love is forbidden.
And I know that this is love for they have taught me every feeling but this
It is more beautiful than any feeling I have ever felt
You take my hand and squeeze it tight
Knowing that they cannot erase our feelings
We hide together to talk all day
Afraid that they may find us
And wipe it away
But fear cannot destroy this feeling
I will break the law and L
Like Someone I've Never MetSometimes it feels like I'm someone
that I've never met.
slides out from beneath broken lips.
Sometimes it feels like I'm someone
that I've never met.
Bundles of guilt, all
wrapped up neatly
like little packages to be posted
and received in the mail.
Somtimes it feels like I'm someone
I can't remember.
Why doesn't your face seem
this isn't fair.
Sometimes it feels like I'm someone
I've never met.
Not yetYou walk away, your eyes are dead, my head is spinning.
Our passion, your lies, my feigned ignorance,
'suppose it wasn't meant meant to last.
I guess it had been nagging at us for a while,
Your touch seemed distant, eyes blank and ready to leave.
Was it my attitude, was it not kinder to play?
These feelings deep in my heart, those looks you don't understand,
Can't you see that it was meant to last, forever?
But maybe from your burning blue eyes,
Forever was too long to stand this pain.
Those feelings deep in my heart, those feelings falling apart,
Maybe I was the one doing you wrong,
"I love you."
Overwhelming me, I fall to m
Nightmares of RealityA girl rested on the bed, rain streaming down the windows of her face, her cheeks melting into blobs of fat in the outpour.
Sleepiness takes advantage of the chance to kneel beside her and outstretch her hand in a tempting offer to take her away. For a moment, there was such an immense struggle in the girl to push it away; she knew it was a lie. But then, she looks into its eyes and she thinks she’s seen those eyes before.
When she had looked down into the black abyss eyes of her grandmother, who was surrounded with white chrysanthemums. When a homeless cat slinking in the rain stared at her from afar. On the people who’ve lost
SunshineI wish I could watch the sun rise,
watch her wipe sand from her eyes,
watch her stretch,
as her arms spread wide
she brightens the night sky.
She makes my skin glow;
my soul, then visible,
wanting to reach out and say," Hello,
when you step out of bed you illuminate my world.
My mind races as I awaken from dreaming
to seeing you;
the moon and the stars then envy you,
moving out of the sky
to look at you;
I turn too,
just so I can say,
my gorgeous sunshine."
Oh heartOh, my heavy, heavy heart
My so very foolish heart
You've destroyed everything, once again
Oh heart, how could you lead me to him?
To that bright star in my night sky?
To the perfection that made me hope, dream,
and feel alive
beneath the gaze of his blue eyes
I wonder if he looks at her that way
If the way he says her name makes her heart swoon
Does she feel for him the way I do?
Did her heart lead her there, too?
Why have you done this to me,
when I was happy to be alone?
Treachery and deceptiveness are your vices
You made me believe in him and me
I went willingly
If only just to feel the presence of his being
How easy it isHow easy it is
Walking with you
Like the sun rising up
And greeting morning dew
How calming your presence
When you come close to me
Like after a storm
In the wide open sea
Your smile so warm
Your eyes so bright
Love bursting forth
Like the breaking of light
I have dreamed you up
All of my life
Have you waited for me?
Like day waits for night?
If only you'd say
What I have longed to hear
Like beauty, like truth,
So is my love for you, dear
like a river flowing alongside the shore knowing that the two are never the same
like a dream that is never fully understood
like one single
like a heartbeat
like the spray of the sea that doesn't fall on flesh
like a single note of a melody when the rest is forgotten
like a voice crying out in the wilderness
like a snowflake that melts before it meets ground
like the desert sand
like stale air
like wind in infinite space
like a young girl who writes pretty thoughts for no one
I miss youI miss you.
Like words to a song that play in my mind,
I don't know the tune but I can still hear the rhyme,
And there you are.
You made me believe in those pretty things you said,
As you slowly made your way out of the door and into my head,
And you're never there.
I put my trust in you.
My faith, the essence of my life, my hope and breath.
Like the rain that lightly falls on my face,
Leaving only memories of wet where it used to hold a place,
You haunt me.
I can't escape the way you once invaded my life.
But I have to let go, or this night,
This blackness that surrounds my lonely little world,
Will never turn to white.
Make me wholeThere's a place inside
Drowning in doubt and fear
Where I go to hide
You will find me there
Locked away from the world
Dreaming of a prayer
That could take me away
Into Your arms
Make me whole
Until I belong
And in this place
Of days passing by
I can't see Your face
I am covered in black
As if I am already lost
And there's no way back
And still I dream
One day You'll come
Make me whole
Until I belong
Though I'm kept away
From everything and everyone
I don't have to stay
To me it's safer here
To slowly die away from it all
But it's becoming clear
That the darkness is
More than I can bear
Take my hand
Lead me away f
He gives me wordsHe is beautiful beyond compare
He shines as pure light
His lips and words as sweet as honey to my soul flow in the air between us
Resting on my spirit
He is so gentle, so patient
There is no rush when I'm with Him
No need for other thoughts
And His laugh meets mine as our joy intertwines
Oh, He has the most beautiful laugh
He is infectious
I love Him
Every part of Him
He whispers in my ear, secrets
Meant only for me
His smile reassures me
I am so thankful for each moment spent in His presence
Under His covering
He is sun and moon and stars and earth and sky and all that is good and perfect
He is br
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`anmari has been spreading her infectious positivity throughout our community for over 6 years. Throughout this time Ana has been at the core of all things devious, passionately developing an eclectic gallery, helping organise devmeets, participating in chat events and also recently completed dedicating her time as a Community Volunteer. We are absolutely delighted to bestow the Deviousness Award for May 2013 to `anmari, congratulations! Read More